My intuition brought me to the Institute for Intuition Training in summer 2020. I found out about it from a friend, went to the website and booked the basic training. I just knew it was "my" place, a place where I would find what I was looking for, what I was craving, even though I didn't know exactly what I was craving, except that I couldn't stand moving in the same patterns, behaviors and cycles anymore.
I was great at thinking, analyzing - I was reflective and I had understood and worked through my history. But I had forgotten two things that prevented me from bringing about real change: my body and my soul, my intuition.
I have always felt taken very seriously, seen and understood by Alexandra. Not only once has she recognized and named stubborn automatisms through her gaze and perception - with compassion, appreciation, neutrality, in all truth and honesty, without bypassing, without glossing over - but just as it is. It is. It was. I found that fascinating. How great, how infinitely great this woman is, her creations and her abilities. Alexandra's training goes deep, it starts where all thinking and analyzing comes to an end. In self-knowledge, I learned to see my traumas at the deepest level, in the subconscious, brought to the surface, I began to become aware of my blind spots and my shadows. In 3.5 years of intensive intuition and trauma work, which also included the body and its sensations, I began to resolve these step by step. I recognized the pain that was nourished by my self-created drama. The drama that I was previously unable to see. Decades of unresolved anger and aggression found their way from the dark into the light and transformed into life force. A powerful force that was released and made a new life possible for me: from survival to life.
I could never speak in front of people and I was also very shy and introverted. This had been with me since Year 1 and didn't get any better as I progressed through school due to the pressure of the system. On the contrary. Speaking in front of people, oral exams and presentations became an absolute horror for me and so I decided to simply stop speaking in front of people. However, the fact that this made me unfree, slowed me down, stole my connection to people, I couldn't defend myself, was constantly underestimated and turned me into a "smile girl" who at least served to make "others feel good" by unloading everything on them was just a consequence.
I have dug through this and other traumas: from the Intuitive Basic and Advanced Training, to the Healing Training, to the Reading Training, Alexandra has guided me through a lot of pain to myself in safety and compassion. A huge gift. I was able to recognize myself and overcome my fear of people and of speaking in front of people. I have found my voice. An honest, authentic, truth-loving voice that now holds workshops on trauma and the nervous system, on intuition and potential, on body connection and safe body experience. Me, the person who can hold spaces safely and neutrally and who accompanies people through their processes in a trauma-sensitive and non-judgemental way. I didn't know anything about this potential before, about the profession and vocation that lay buried under all the heaviness, just waiting to be released.
I now know what I was longing for: for myself and for healing. I wanted to heal. So much so that I followed this path to the very depths without compromise and with total dedication. I am grateful to the bottom of my heart for this safe space and for Alexandra as my teacher. I owe it to her (and to myself, of course) that I am now where I have always wanted to be: in uncompromising being. Expressed in nervous system language: I have widened the middle of my stress tolerance window and I can hold myself and my intense feelings, I am alive without plummeting into the abyss in the next moment. I am alive and I am securely connected to myself and my intuition. What greater gift could there be?
THANK YOU from the bottom of my heart, Alexandra!
